Monday, October 15, 2012

So maybe this is what family really is...

A few weeks ago I was eating dinner at a friend's house who over the past 1 1/2 years has found herself raising her two nieces and nephew.  After dinner the kids ran off to work on homework and play outside.  Amanda and I plopped down on the couch in the living room to chat and watch The Voice.  During our conversation we somehow got on the subject of family, and she made a comment that has resonated with me since that night.  She said, "Sometimes God comes in and totally redefines your idea of what family looks like."

I'm pretty sure my eyes started to tear up as I started to think about that.  I was born into an incredible family with awesome parents, a great big brother, and a best friend for a little sister.  I have been blessed in so many incredible ways through my parents and my siblings, but recently God has been showing me that His idea of family is so much larger than that.

Growing up most little girls want to get married and have a house full of kids that they can call their family.  For a long time I thought that was family and that that was exactly what I wanted, but recently God has been showing me that family can look completely different than that!


Family can look like 5 girls piled onto a small couch laughing until our sides hurt.

Family can look like sharing birthday dinner with one of the sweetest 11 year old boys I know.




Family can look like the amazing staff that I get to work with on a weekly basis!



God is continually transforming my definition of family!  There are countless more examples of the family that He has blessed me with here in Little Rock.  He has blessed me with next door neighbors from PV who let me come crash at their place to watch Big Bang Theory almost every week.  He has blessed me with the Leveretts who put up with Boomer and me crashing for dinner at least twice a week.  He has blessed me with our Thursday night family dinner crew who feels like little brothers and sisters to me.  He has blessed me with 60 little sisters that I would do absolutely anything for.  He has blessed me with 60 little brothers who constantly keep me laughing and keep my life entertaining.  He has blessed me with incredible older sisters who surround me with prayer and pour so much of God's love into my life.  He has expanded my view of what family truly is.  What a blessing that when we are a part of the Church God is constantly extending our view of what family truly is!



I love my girls!
Best siblings ever!
Best Friends!
So blessed by these little sisters!
Keeping it classy! 
Hanging out in my pajamas!
This pretty much sums up our relationship!

Best little brothers ever!
All the kids!
Couldn't have been blessed with better parents!
I am so thankful that God is constantly expanding my view of what family really is!  He has blessed me in more ways that I could ever imagine!!








Sunday, October 14, 2012

What if it's Us?


I’m prayerful that as I write these words that the power of the Holy Spirit which is far greater than I can even imagine will give me wisdom and clarity to proclaim the truth of our awesome God.

Last week I sat down to spend some time studying the Word, and I ended up reading through most of Galatians and Ephesians.  As I read through Ephesians 1 some verses stood out to me like they never have before. 

I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better.  I pray also that they eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints, and his incomparably great power for us who believe.  That power is like the working of his mighty strength, which he exerted in Christ when he raised him from the dead and seated him at his right hand in the heavenly realms, far above all rule and authority, power and dominion, and every title that can be given, not only in the present age but also in the one to come.  And God placed all things under his feet and appointed him to be head over everything for the church, which is his body, the fullness of him who fills everything in every way.  
Ephesians 1:17-23

This whole week I haven’t been able to shake this verse.  It keeps popping into my head over and over again.  The power that raised Christ from the dead is available to us who believe.  We have the same power that raised Christ from the dead alive in us.  HOLY GUACAMOLE…THAT’S GOOD NEWS! 

But for some reason we don’t tap into that power.  For some reason, we live mostly as if we are completely powerless.  For some reason we don’t ask God to do anything in our lives that would be unexplainable.  For some reason our lives make complete sense to unbelievers.  But as Spirit filled followers of Jesus Christ there must be something different about us.  Our lives must look different from those who don’t believe in our Savior.

This morning in class a girl brought up an excellent point…She said, “How do you explain the people who aren’t Christians who seem to be filled with the fruit of the Spirit?”  Our teacher Jeff Spry suggested an answer that has had me thinking all morning long.

He agreed that there are definitely people in this world that seem to be filled with love, joy, goodness, gentleness, patience, kindness, and the other fruits of the Spirit who would not claim to be Christians.  He then posed a question that I can’t stop wrestling with, “What if it is us?”  What if it is us who have become like the world?  What if it is us who are only tapping into the slightest piece of what the Spirit truly has to offer?  What if it is us who have so much more love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control available to us, yet we look no different than nice people who don’t know Jesus?  What if we have traded in the incomparably great power that raised Jesus from the dead to camouflage with the world? What if it’s us?

As I wrestle with this question I pray boldly and in faith that the incomparably great power that raised Jesus from the dead will be resurrected in me.  I pray that each breath that I take will be purposed for the Kingdom.  I pray that The Spirit of our God who is alive in me will work in ways that are completely unexplainable by this world.   

Francis Chan put it excellently in his book Forgotten God, “I don’t want my life to be explainable without the Holy Spirit.  I want people to look at my life and know that I couldn’t be doing this by my own power.  I want to live in such a way that I am desperate for Him to come through.  That if He doesn’t come through, I am screwed.” (Mom...I know you will read this and think..."I can't believe my daughter just typed that word"...but it's a direct quote...I promise I don't say that.)

I want my life to look like that.  I want to pray boldly in faith for things this world says are impossible and bow amazed before my God when He comes through in amazing ways.  I want to be led by the Holy Spirit every step of the way, completely surrendered to His will for my life…even if that leads me to the cross. 

Two last quotes from Forgotten God that sum up some of my thoughts on why this is so challenging for us…

“When it comes down to it, many of us do not really want to be led by the Holy Spirit.  Or, more fundamentally, many of us don’t want to be led by anyone other than ourselves.”  

“The Spirit will lead you to the way of the cross, as He led Jesus to the cross, and that is definitely not a safe or pretty or comfortable place to be.”

I pray that as disciples of Jesus Christ that we will seek to allow His Spirit, which is alive in us to produce unexplainable fruit in our lives.  I pray that we will not camouflage with the world, but that our lives will be filled with the unexplainable acts of the Holy Spirit!  I pray that our knees will humbly bow before the throne of our omnipotent God with requests that can only be accomplished through the working of His incomparably great power.  He is faithful!