What I Want More!

My family and friends from back home are so so special to me!  I cherish the time that I get to spend with them!  I still tear up every time I leave my parents' house to drive back home to Little Rock! I miss them a lot!  I miss spending countless hours laughing with my little sister.  I miss Kristin's endless energy and love for life.  I miss shopping and watching movies with the sister-in-law.  I miss Braden's witty sense of humor that keeps the whole family on their toes.  I miss shooting out in the driveway with my daddy and watching sports together.  I miss getting daily hugs and kisses from my mom as well as hearing her sweet voice tell me as I walk out the house door..."Be careful, I love you!" I miss them!  

To be honest there are days when I want to pack my car up and move back to Oklahoma just so I can be close to them.  There are days when I long for the comfort and the love from back home.  But there are other things that I want more!   

I want to spend hours talking with my sister and laughing so hard that we cry! I want to have my best friend right by my side.  I want to spend time with my brother and sister-in-law seeing who can make each other feel the most awkward.  I want to curl up on the couch by my dad and watch hours of basketball.  I want to hear my mom say, "be careful, I love you!"  But what I want even more than all of those things is to be right in the middle of God's will for my life!  What I want more is to see my 7th graders get up every Wednesday night to pray together!  What I want more is to have conversation after conversation with my girls about the faithfulness, power, and pure awesomeness of our God.  What I want more is to see my teens give their lives to Christ in baptism.  What I want more is to walk into the teen room and get 70 hugs.  What I want more is to watch my teens serve so selflessly.  What I want more is to see my girls fall head over heals in love with our Savior!  What I want more is to spend day after day investing in His eternal Kingdom!  What I want more is to spend time on my knees in prayer with my little sisters in Christ.  What I want more is to follow in the footsteps of my savior!  What I want more is to fall before my Father's throne everyday and trust that He will provide me with everything that I need in order to fulfill His purpose for me.

It's almost been two years since I packed up my car and moved to Little Rock, and these past two year have been filled with plenty of ups and downs!  I am so thankful that my God has led me somewhere where I have had to learn to depend on Him like never before.  And even though I miss my family so much, I feel so blessed to be able to work with such amazing teens!  When I see how God is constantly transforming all of them I am amazed and I can't imagine missing out on all of this!  His power is infinite and I feel so blessed that He has invited me to be a part of His work.